Where I Was

I had the same best friend for twelve years straight. It was truly the most beautiful relationship I have ever had. She taught me how to laugh, have fun, not care about what others think, and how to be original. All I can say is thank you Bibbet. I always will love you.. And never any less. 

I was even more selfish than I am now. I know, I know it's hard to believe that I ever wanted more attention and was more self-centred than I am now. But it's the truth. 

I was once at in a state where I thought I didn't have any friends. Let me tell you, I was wrong then, and I would be wrong now, because I definitely have the best friends in the universe (sorry, your's aren't the best, mine are #fact). 

I hated pretty much everything about my life because I was a control freak. But mostly I didn't like being homeschooled. 

There was an extremely melodramatic ridiculous ordeal that went on for months (and when I say months I mean years)  involving He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named. No, not Voldemort. A guy. Honestly, I was a downright pain to him, and he was an utter douche bag to me. Also, I was young. That may or may not have had anything to do with the birth of the problem and the prolonging of the situtation.     

So, as you can see, I used to be really messed up. Emphasis on the 'used' and 'really'. Not going to go into anymore gory details, but it was bad. Like Skins bad. But God is gracious. And forgiving. And everything I could ever want or ever need. Now I am His. And I didn't have to clean up to be washed in the blood of Jesus. I came as I was, and was redeemed by His sacrifice. Now I am still messed up, to an extent. Nobody is perfect. But thats not an excuse. 

For Understanding

I could give all the reasons why I haven't blogged in a while, or even make up a few. But I won't because I am back for now. 

The last posts have been about what is going on in my life/realizations etc. I hardly think that the "About Me" column is enough for you to know who I am. I feel like that is important, so I hereby dedicate the next few posts to me. Haha. 

*refrains from singing "This is Me" from Camp Rock* 


*...refrains...*